It is at that point that my brain completely shifts gears to my family. I ponder why I have a brother living at home at 23 when he wants to be married in 6 months. Why his older brother declared bankruptcy at 19 and why my sister has such a hard time coping with life at home and in general. Then there is a moment that I feel guilty. Guilty that I made it out, away from home. That I made a good life and had a good marriage at least for a while. I have amazing children and I am good at nearly everything I do. Except despite what I want more than anything I am apparently reprehensibly terrible at relationships.
Then in a most astoundingly ADD fashion I wonder does the plant that thrives feel guilty or is that just the luck of us humans?....